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“What’s wrong?”
- I don’t even know. I jst start crying outta nowhere- I just wanna die sometimes’… I thought about slitting my wrists or snapping my neck..The only reason i dont is because I cant leave my babies alone…. if i didnt have them i wouldve been dead along time ago…. I dont know what to do anymore… its like no matter how hard i try i cant be happy…. i just cant…. :/
. I hate this empty feeling inside. I hate that I can’t let shit go &’ move on. I CAN’T. I’m not strong enough.
” Do you wanna talk about it?”
- I dont want to talk… u dont understand…. nobody does…. no one can help me….. no…. i cant. i dont want to talk about it because then it becomes real.. and i can go on pretending that Im normal &’ that nothing ever happened. Pretending that I have a perfect life. A perfect Me…… but its all a lie…. i just cant. i’ve been sad for a really long time & i dont think its ever going to end….. Im damaged goods & i dont deserve to be happy I just want it all to end… Im just tired and i dont know what to do anymore…. i cant keep doing this….
” I just want to help”
- You cant. I cant be helped anymore. i cry EVERY night &’ i dont even know why…. it just hurts so much….. my head starts spinnig &’ then memories i dont wanna have keep popping up &’ i jst wanna DIE… i hate myself…. I hate what i’ve become… i hate evrything about my life EXCEPT them…. they saved me frm myself…. I jst cant deal with this anymore i jst wanna go balnk &’ forget evrything but i cant…. i hate this.
